I have been thinking about writing a blog for a while now, but I have talked myself out of it many times. I am not the best writer and I really don't know if people are interested in what I have to say, but I have felt God leading me in this direction, so here it goes.
Jon and I have been trying to conceive a baby for 2 and a half years, almost 3 without any luck. We started trying, or stopped preventing (as we called it) the summer of 2009. We were excited about the possibilities, nervous about the outcomes that would be, and oblivious that anything would stop us. I remember going to the doctor in January for my yearly appointment and telling her I was not taking any birth control. We were both excited! She told me that most couples get pregnant within the first year, but that if we were not pregnant to come back to her and we move forward. I researched everything there was to research about how to get pregnant, how long it takes to get pregnant, how do you know you are pregnant, etc. I bought the tests to tell me if I was ovulating and took them every month, but never could get a good reading on one. I started taking Prenatal vitamins, cut down on sugar and even made Jon stop exercising as much, stop drinking caffeine, and start taking vitamin C. As we got closer to the year mark I started getting very disappointed. During that first year we had friends and family members getting pregnant and having babies. We kept our trying a secret for a while. We finally told some of our family so they could pray with us. Eventually we started opening up to some friends so they could also pray with us. I just knew God was going to give us a baby. We have had so much encouragement and prayer from other people.
The day that I went to see my doctor because we hadn't gotten pregnant was the day my sister-in-law went into labor to have our youngest nephew. There were so many emotions, but I was still hopeful. I continued thinking that all I needed was a little boost, a little medicine to get things moving in the right direction. I talked to so many women that said "oh we had trouble getting pregnant, but I was put on Clomid and the first month on it we were pregnant". My doctor decided to go ahead a refer us to an infertility specialist. I had mixed emotions because I was happy she wanted to go ahead and not waste any time, but infertility? Infertility is such a scary word. It has so many meanings from can't conceive at all to needing a few adjustments here or there, but no couple wants to hear that word. Well, we got a few names of some specialists and one came with such a great referral that we chose him. We were told he was such a Godly man and that he prays with you and is so nice. We checked out his website and there was scripture on the very first page, Jeremiah 29:11. We were sold. I called and we were in within a few weeks. After getting the appointment I did more research on infertility. The internet is such a great invention, but can be so harmful when you are trying to figure out what is medically wrong with you. I know so many people, myself included, that looks up any symptom and it is usually the worst thing out there that you believe is wrong with you.
Our first appointment with our infertility specialist went great! He was just what we hoped he would be.
